Merry Christmas 2010

first of all, want to greet everyone merry christmas, hope you guys have a enjoyable days, this year is first time i pass this 2 days in true single heart, not at someone else, very happy with that...

let's talk about 24th that day, i go lunch together with Kok Wai at Island Two at Air Putih, not bad the food there, then at night go dinner with parents, after that i go home play PS2 whole night then sleep, for the first time after i back to single, i no need to worry about can't give a nice gift to someone, scare that guy don't like my attire when meet, scare give my parents saw and have to do anything i could to make her happy although most of the time i failed. this year really relax, well, if you ask me whether worth or not for doing that last time, i would say, yes, it worth, it worth every single moment when i saw that smile and a hug from her. but most of the time i didn't really get it... lol...

talk about 25th, today is quite happy, morning go Clement's church's party, saw a young beautiful girl there, well, just watch only, didn't have other intention, you know la, single is like that one, hahahahaha, it's been a long time i didn't do that, watch beautiful girl with those eye say: how good if she is my gf, hahahaha XD just kidding...

noon play computer a while then go back house to have a nap, my eye finally can focus well after few days of blur-ness but still got a bit blur, that head problem got some "improvement", i think only she know what's the problem in this whole world, my mind got some moment try to shut down itself, i mean permanently one, somehow i manage to force it to stay online, lol...

tonight something i predicted happened, i finally saw her when i go movie with my parents, well, if not her friend's eye sight, i think i probably won't know she is there, anyway, when i saw her, i feel like she is just another ordinary friend, no more those kind of couple thing anymore, hmmm, guess i have successful mind trick on myself, by the way, for the first time, i actually successfully forget all her number which i have memories for 3 years, it's my first time to forget something i wish to treasure for my whole life, hmmm... whatever... anyway, she is still that cute and beautiful, and i will still say, how good if we still together, lol... in fantasy it may happen but not in real world, so confused huh, last time say hope she don't disturb me anymore but now say if still together then good, haiz, don't know la, i just wish to be single for a period of time to relief those tension i gain when i was in relationship, i planned everything quite perfectly for our relationship last time but defeated by one thing, ATTITUDE, i defeated by this thing, i make a tiny mistake at the begining of our relationship which i try so hard to fix it for the rest of the time but fail at the end, ended by ATTITUDE, haiz, poor me, never mind la, most important thing is, I'M STILL HERE! I DIDN'T GO TO JUMP! hahahahaha, i survive to live another love journey, i gain many experience to handle the next journey, i think i can have a better one in the future, i believe it will come soon but i hope not too soon, tonight i wear T-shirt and short pant that she gave me as present last time, want to remind me always appreciate someone you love before you lost her, no matter what happen in the relationship, defend it because it's not easy to have such person you love, if have a big argue, just assume that it's a time for him/her to release tension, most important is try to fix that after the furious end, don't make the cold war too long or the war will end the relationship... hmmm... i think i talk too much...

write till here first la, want to sleep now...