Monday, October 22, 2012

Life as a game

This week i noticed many friends post their graduation photos at facebook, i bet they have wait this moment since secondary school where we can start fighting for money instead of some exam hi-score in the school, same as me, i am sick of scoring hi-score in the school, anyway, i like to score goals, hahahaha, i scored not less than 1000 goals for my entire secondary school career, not sure i am the highest or not but definitely one of the highest...

Now, we all start scoring a new type of hi-score, society hi-score, this included honour, trustworthy, branding, famous, relationship, friendship and many other ships, well, i just hope i won't be forever alone, hahahaha, many more in this brand new game, i always assume life is a game where many jobs we can choose then start to train like a pro, keep on up level, like the games, we can't train all the abilities because we just can't, if we can live about 1000 years, then it would be possible, i mean train till pro level not novice level, my skills that i want to train? Speaking is one of my favourite...

No matter what job you choose to live with, there are some skills that i think we all need to train, we can start with a skill that is so important that people choose to ignore it will suffer for the rest of his or her life, that skill is call communication with we start to train since we are born, the moment we are born, well, at least i saw what happen to new born babies, hehe, parents already waiting their babies to speak out the first word, the first word they train usually is papa or mama, not nen nen or mum mum, so, communication is definitely very important, people nowadays really lack of this skills because of invention of IM, like weechat, whatsapp, facebook chat and many more chatting software or apps, that's why you can see they can write many meaningful and sometimes very shocking word that those person are the most least expect will write out one, that's is why one of my friends critic people nowadays is 面子书就一条龙,面对人就一条虫, well said, i admit i am not good enough and still got many space to improve, i learn everyday and keep on training...

I once is like what my friend said, well, last time at my era only got live messenger, before that is msn messenger and yahoo messenger, before that is ICQ and mRIC ( if i am not remember wrongly ) , i bet many people don't know what is mRIC and ICQ because it's like in dinasaur age, lol, beside that, my era very popular with sms one, last time DiGi got one package call MTV power pack very cheap on sms, just need RM5 then can send as many sms as you can at that month, i wonder do those people who own it last time still keep it due to phones of now need data plan to keep on "survive" on facebook...

I remember last time i got a girl call siew fen's number, we chat very well throught sms, in digital world, we chat like old friends, when in real world when we meet, damn, we so cool to each others, in my era, people use to blogging a lot and make a lots of friends throught their blog, me as well, throught blog, i get know to a good friend call phaik san, she even celebrate my 17th birthday at tc together with sam, snake ming, siew teng and one more is jess lim i think if not mistaken, i remember that night got 6 people sitting at McDonald the outer side one after playing at the beach, we are so close that time and many people taught we are couple, lol, if that time i am not feel too deep on L2W, i might fall on her, it's normal human nature, don't say me what what what, if for you i think will happen the same, well, i remember that time she got a bad bf, i don't really know who is he but phaik san try very hard to avoid him i think even now because last time when i post sanubari camp photo, she ask me to delete photos that got her face, well, as a gentlemen, of course i delete it, i even thinking to delete the whole album just to protect her feelings, as a friend of course, if my calculation is right, she probably didn't even see any photos of the album, just in case remind her something, alright, enough for that story, back to the topic...

It's late night now and write more a while then go sleep, next time only continue to part 2 about this topic la, long time didn't write blog but somehow now quite addicted to it...

Recently i study 风水, it's a interesting knowledge to learn, to emphasis your luck, fortune, relationship, career and many more, i made some adjustment on my room, my car and some of my personal stuff to have good fengshui, the first thing i do after read a fengshui book which is for rookie like me, well, that boom is not call " fengshui for dummies " if you want to know, it's written by lilian too one, oh ya, the dirst thing i do is i remove that mirror on my room, don't know just coincident or plocebo, after remove the mirror, now i can wake up more easily than last time, lol...

I write till here first la, very tired plus tomorrow need to drive to kl, good night my friends :-)

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Nice horse

I meet a girl when i was in the highland last time, i am quite attracted by her when i saw her, i can still remember the very first time we meet is at SF's house and she is quite emo base on her face, she is like usually carry a serious face along with her, lol... She is part of the committee that organizing a 3 days 2 nights camp at school, that night, big part of the committees come to SF's house and they ask for my help to solve some of their problems inside their comittee, darn, quite a mess but not so complicated compare to what i met before, piece of cake, i shared something to them about leadership and answered some of their questions that bother them, i am quite glad that i can help up althought i didn't really know did i help out something...

I still can remember at the next night, they ask me go to their meeting session and try to give them a talk about the spirit of team and ask me try to unite them up, wah, talk is easy but do is another thing, luckily i got some experience of dealing these situation so i just walk in and start talking, what i didn't expect is whole bunch of people are sitting all around the table and it's quite a large circle, total people is more than 30 people and their range is from form 1 to form 5, my goodness, so many different channels i have to deal with at the same time, first time for me but luckily i trained well by my teacher so i just deal with it, that night is the second time i meet her, actually feel great that i meet her again, i am a person who strongly believe in 缘分, but i try not to think too much about relationship because i don't want to have a common sickness like other boys which is whenever a single boy saw a beautiful and nice girl then will become some kind of buaya, keep on thinking want to chase that girl, lol...

After that night, they invite me to their camp at May, at first, i didn't really plan to join them but somehow my heart tell me to join it because i quite like to be with them, i feel very very very relax when with them, so, at the end, i joined and i was asked to give a talk there, very well then...

When at the camp, i tell them put me into the game part because i want to play with them, somehow i am same group with her in one game station that we need to take care of, my old habits start again, calculating something between me and her, somehow she is the one who start the "fight" between us and everything kick start just like that, i like her style, actually, she is that type of girl i searching for, but still, i need to put her under my observation period, do my research, survey, homeworks, i quite careful of choosing a girl to be my gf now because i studied myself and i found out that if i love a girl, i will tolerate her with a high limits even me also can't think of just to make her happy, in the 4 days 3 nights (committee members enter the school one day earlier than the participants), i observe her whenever she is in my range, study her every move, of course, she got good side and bad side, no one is perfect include me, my bad side is i am a calculative person because, well, you can say i am scare of losing, but for me, i just don't want to suffer anymore, what i want is a caring gf that care about me and can handle me well, not easily get emo then very very good enough to me, honestly, i quite like her, i don't really care the time gap between us, but there is one thing that always drag me is the old memory, kinda like a phobia now, whenever i try to put my feeling on her, all the bad memories just flash out and tell me not to start a new one, i seperate with JY not because i want to but i have to, i studied JY's subconcious a few times by testing her and i found out something very sad to me, so, what can i do but move on? So i start to let everything to lose control which i use to control and calculated well then eventually the chain reaction will bring an end to it, believe it or not, i found that out one month after we start our relationship, you see, i made a choice, i choose to believe in her instead of my hardly wrong calculations, if not also won't last that long la... Lol...

Back to the topic, shouldn't talk about JY, as a respect for her, i should stop writing about her, because when a relationship fail, sure is wrong from both side one, just who wrong the most, alright, about miss horse, at the last day of the camp, many people give their book to people their meet to write something, i still can remember what i write on her book, hahahaha, and she is kinda touched as well, maybe i think too much but i think there is something wrong about her on me, lol, hahahahaha, whatever la, december i will go find her again, as a friend of course...

that noon, she suppose to be with me at a station we manage, at the end we are seperate due to shortage of team leaders on the group game, i stay at the station while she go lead one of the groups, i studied people reactions on her as well, she is quite a fierceful girl, even ah chee also don't really dare to make fun of her, while me? i always like to challenge this kind of girl, which is my favourite type of girl i like to make fun with, hahahaha ! she is quite terrible sometimes, forcing people to cooperate with her, i remember there is a video they released, it's about a station she manage, the game is wear a helmet and smash open the watermelon, after that eat finish all the red stuff then win the station, what i saw she treat those guys are quite shocking, i wonder will i tame her if we are together, lol...

what a interesting girl...







Graduation

I have been waiting this moment for quite a long time. Waiting this since 2009 and i manage to pass my diploma at 3 points, not bad for me, i didn't aim 4 points also, 3 is good enough for me, i got many rivals in my class, i take 2 as my rivals, one is shan jee and one more siti hajar, both of them is strongest among of them, at the end, i lose to them, siti hajar manage to take 3.48 for her diploma, yes, 3.48, little more then can go to first class, shan jee got 3.04 if not remember wrongly, take me down by about 0.06 like that, i should have win her but i lose at the end due to my laziness, many assignments, quiz and test i take low marks because i am too lazy to focus at there anymore at the final semester, i just can't wait to get out from there as soon as i can, so, dreaming started, i almost fail my managerial accountthis  subject, i didn't perform well on the quiz and test of this subject for my carry marks, i get quite low marks on my carry marks but i manage to pass it with a B-, i was very nervous when i get my result for the last time because i am really worry about this subject, if fail, have to stay for another semester just for this subject, damn, i am so lucky to pass it and i appreciate it, somehow i must say, this diploma is quite a easy job althought i didn't pass it with first class because i am just too lazy, even i am lazy i still manage to get 3 points, imagine people who hardworking on it, anyway, only one person out of 30 something people in my course get first class, and is a she and is a malay, very nice, good job, beat all the 3 chinese students, hahahaha, lol...

We have to travel to skudai which located at johor there, for the first time, i drive the car together with whole family to travel this road, we go from pekan then rompin then mersing then pass by johor bahru then reach skudai, 4 hours something for the whole journey, convo at tuesday, rehersal at monday but we arrives at sunday, just in case we can't make it on time at monday, the convo run smoothly without any technical problem or human problem, everyone is happy to go up stage and recieve their own album from the proffessor of UTM after that we just go home after our lunch at AEON JUSCO MALL...

Quite miss the miss horse althought i try quite hard to stay at single mode because i am still very tired of getting a new gf after my first failure, i miss L2W as well, hahahaha, what's wrong with me, anyway, me and L2W is unlikely to be a couple because she is too high and she don't like short poeple like me, i agree with the point of view of her, so i didn't put anymore effort on her, she can meet a better one, anyway, who knows what will happen in the future? Hahahaha... If she can accept short people like me, i might take my chance, hahahaha...

About miss horse, i still put her in observation period, i scare to choose a wrong person, again, this time i want a girl that can stand by my side all the time and give me support whenever i need it, support from comforting my feelings, in return, i shall take care of her whatever she wants, when i success, i will make sure she got all my 24 hours on her side, be together with her forever as a reward of putting so much trust and faith on me, hehe :-)