Haunted pass

Well, i have tell the girl i like that i like her, her respond is negative to me, somehow i have release myself because i have my shot, actually i quite fear to start another relationship due to last bad experience i had, somehow this time when i saw her again, after i observe one thing specificaly, i get another variable on my calculation about our relationship, if we had one, it doesn't have a good future, much of the branches lead to bad stuff, believe me, we do crazy things for love, i actually didn't put that new data into the calculation before i try to start a relationship with her, but when i get back my concious, logic mind runs again, and it's not good, well, for me she is a good girl, i got my own theory for all girls, every girl have their bad side and bad personality, no one is perfect, bad personality or bad side is a risk, if you can handle the risk, then you go for her and blame nothing because you chose her as the one you love

I always remember there is one time when i have a quarel with my ex, she scolded me : i am like this ! Whether you like it or not, i am like this ! Don't forget you are the one who choose me to be with !... I straight away shut up and let her win, she educate me well at that quarel, she got the most important point of our relationship, she always win in a arguement unless i purposely want to win let make her get furious about me so that she hate me at our breaking point and won't miss me and trust me at all after our break...

As i said, bad personality is part of the relationship, so don't blame your gf since you have chose her, that black horse is good but the risk i don't want to handle, so, good also, she said i am not her type, but she is my type anyway, trollolol...

Good, i can celebrate my 3rd anniversary of single life and i am enjoy it well, somehow got a relative want to intro me a japanese girl which she is 21 years old and study law, hmmm, variable is good but i got huge opinion about japanese culture, so i take it as a joke to kena me for being single, hahahaha

Really hope all the couple in the world have a wonderful relationship and always take care each other's heart and feeling, and most important is accept their bad personality to tolerate your love one, don't learn me and repeat my failure, i didn't tolerate her well, and cost me a break up at the end of the chain reaction, anyway, past is past, have to look forward, still searching the one that worth my effort to protect her and love her for the rest of my life, if not, i will stay single for the rest of my life...