Exciting day

It's been a long time i didn't been this excited since few years ago, can't believe i actually and finally meet her and yam cha with her, even until now, i am still nervous when facing her, in fact, even i am still together with my ex, i get little nervous too when i meet her, guess my heart still telling me to go after her and the chemical reaction inside my body still haven't faded yet, but i am loyal to my ex although i still remain some like ingredient on her when we are still together, i know loyalty is important in a relationship, even if she suddenly say she want to be with me, i won't break with my ex to be with her also...

what a historical day for me yesterday noon...

Looks like i kena again, now my whole head is all her face and her voice, made me can't sleep, still excited about it, well, she graduated and finished her in-tern and now move between KL and Kuantan quite frequently due to her part time job, she said she haven't know what she want yet but i guess she already know, just still not sure about it only, it's ok for a girl to say that...

We got talk little about my ex and my relationship about her, she actually ask me to keep contact with her and not suppose to cut everything off, somehow she want to know her face, well, i don't encourage her about that for certain of my reason, i try to avoid something, plus i got no reason to keep in touch with her also, not in a million years, but somehow today i saw one of her best friend also yam cha at there and we greet each other, trollolol...

After yesterday's event, now only i know that how she think about me when i try to chase her last time, it's quite akward when we talk about this, she said she want to meet me and want to know more about me since we never meet before, i guess someone encouraged her to meet me privately without any company, we have a nice long talk because we got quite a history to talk, can't believe i can talk freely and more happily because both of us study finance and our thinking system is sync on most of the part, but we talk a lot about last time how i chase her, really weird but we ok about it, maybe she is giving her chance to know more about me and maybe to give me chance because she finished her study and maybe may can fall into a relationship with someone but still in choosing stage, she is very surprise that i know many many things of her and something that she didn't even realise, she once live in a cave, i don't blame her, i just blame i am not smart enough to build a contact bridge between us, yesterday could be my happiess day in 2013, i shall always remember it...

Well, of course i still like her and even have the intension to go after her but i still have some doubt that need to clear, i try to lure her subconcious out by talking to her about certain things to make sure something, and she pass, she is a good girl, just got some flaw but i can accept and tolerate, anyway, she still fresh about me, need to give her time to know more about me as a friend first, it's good to have her as a friend although i want more than that, well, i don't want to think too much since we just officially meet each other, too bad we didn't take photo together but i think that's better, if not i won't be able to sleep whole night while i need it to prepare tomorrow morning futsal match...

I still got a lot of surprise to her, yo, u just wait and see...

It's good to meet you back, really :-)